My cat stared at me throughout my entire breaking of fast today.

>_<

I feel very tired starting this semester.

So far, so good. I am still sane and no paranoia has kick in yet.

I was supposed to go to bed early so that I can wake up at 4.45Am for sahur and get ready, while getting enough rest. But I got carried away so I guess it’ll be like a 4 hour-sleep again for me tonight.

Not good not good.

Anyway, I also wanted to start researching for my assignments but then I started FB-ing, after being MIA for a couple of days, and sorted my emails.

And I’m feeling SO dopey the whole day!

So, I shall start my work tomorrow.

Yes, I will.

xx,

ChiRa

I don’t know what I’m feeling right now.

It’s a huge mixture of emotions, feelings of pure sheer happiness, relieved, elated, relaxed but also rushed, anxious, sad, and disappointed.

Like I had hoped, I passed. And I passed good. Like good good. I wouldn’t in a MILLION years would have expected my results to look like this. I didn’t even expect that IO would be that high considering such sloppy revision and I totally neglected the journals and researchers and years.

Never would I guess in a trillion years that my Developmental was also good. I mean, I studied the wrong parts and I crapped 5 pages of essay which I thought was all rubbish and nonsense, so crappy that Ms. E would just rip the paper apart and stuff them down my throat.

Also never in a quadrillion years would I imagine getting so low for Social, like a borderline B. On the dot. It’s thanks to my coursework that I even got a B because I barely passed my paper. I know Social was going to be as crappy because I mixed everything up! The thinking errors, the definitions, the terms, the explanations. But thank you Dr. P and whoever who marked my paper for not failing me.

But honestly, my IO surprised me! My brain just died studying it. Like it just died. Died.

~

I think that I was the first few (or maybe the first – ‘perasan’ moment hehe) to check my results. I didn’t expect it. It was like what, 12.19pm, and I read somewhere that it was going to be out TOMORROW. So I was doing the usual routine of jamming the reload button on Izone when suddenly the table appeared.

My heart literally stopped. It just.. stopped.

And phew.. I passed. No Cs and Ds either ;)

Seriously, how dramatic can I get?

I immediately called my mum who was in Tesco doing grocery shopping after one of her religious classes and I yelled (seriously, I yelled) “I PASSED I PASSED” into the phone because (saying ‘Hello’ is like so last year – KIDDING) I was just so excited. I mean, I am a second year student! I don’t have to dig out my notes to study for any resits! How awesome is that, seriously eh?

Because my Maxis hates me and gives me the shittiest signals when I’m at home, my mum couldn’t hear me and kept yelling back into the phone. So it’s like two people yelling into.. nothing. Anyway, after repeated tries of calling, I got to her and she was back to her usual response whenever I tell her good news :

“Are you sure you saw correctly?”

“Is that really your results? Like current?”

“Are the subjects correct?”

“Is that really your name? Did you check the spelling? The ID?”

… and etcetera.

My mum also got so excited until she lost her trolley and was shouting about her lost trolley. I could imagine the other Tesco shoppers looking at her with weird expressions on their faces. Hahahaha. And I think I cried a little (out of extreme relief) while I was telling her about it.

I was really worried the whole month okay!

~

I am just happy. I am thankful, very very very thankful, Alhamdullillah syukur that I passed. I can move on with my life and meet my awesome classmates next Monday! I miss my classmates so much! They’re just an amazing bunch of people :)

But I’m rushing to complete our research paper with Kar Yee and Natalie. And I’m so so exhausted because this is not a holiday for me. I didn’t get enough sleep because of the sleeping rule in the house (must get up by 9AM latest) and I wake up average at 7AM everyday. And I sleep really really REALLY late every night because I am dying to transform into an owl.

I am currently the house SLAVE because I can’t fast yet. So I do the things that house slaves do. And it’s a whole lot of things because I’m doing EVERYTHING on my own. So, it’s tough this time around. Ramadan is a very busy month for me. I just am so happy that I am a very patient person.

I am sorry for complaining.

I am very very thankful to everyone who congratulated me. Thank you. I appreciate all of them! I didn’t do that well lah, if I studied even harder, I could’ve get even higher marks. It was just average. There are so many smarter and better students out there than me. I am just a very lucky person. And I hope this luck won’t ever run out.

My dad wasn’t too happy. In fact, I think he wasn’t happy at all. He didn’t say anything and just kept quiet with a grim look but oh well, at least he won’t be paying for any resits eh?

And I’m trying to adopt Ai-Suan’s overly optimistic outlook on life this time around. I shall try.

~

I cannot wait to start my next semester. Next Monday. Time flies SO FAST! Maybe after a few posts on my blog, you’ll see me blogging about graduating or something hahaha!

I am also nervous. And there’s this tiny part in me that is wishing that this holiday is a little longer. I haven’t had a good holiday in years.

~

I haven’t watched Cougar Town in ages!

I miss my Laurie!

xx

ChiRa

Happy Fasting! Ramadan starts today!

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Results are not out yet. I am terrified. What if I fail? It’s 3.12AM and I’m WIDE awake.

This is not a good sign.

~

New semester commences next Monday!

Will I make it to second year?

Pray for me please, people!

xx

ChiRa

New Ouran chapter!

Woot woot!

(Yes, I am feverishly desperate to get my mind off my not-yet-available results.)

Haruhi and Tamaki are finally together! And it’s official!

Possible date choices. Hahaha!

I just LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE the twins’ facial expressions!

“Do not make it look like she’s heavy”

“Say something like ‘Oh you’re as light as a feather’”

HAHAHAHAHAH!! Honestly, only Tamaki can pull off such a thing.

~

This is the ONLY manga that I’m following right now. In my entire life, I’ve only followed 2 mangas from BEGINNING till END which are Cardcaptor Sakura and Ouran High School Host Club.

Honestly, it’s not that I hate manga, I am generally a lazy person. To load the page and read the tiny boxes one by one or download the folder and zoom in to read the tiny words. I prefer reading a normal book or watch the anime (if it’s worth watching in the first place).

It’s not that I’m lazy to read okay, I am an avid reader. Currently, I am reading 3 books simultaneously. So yeah.

I’m over my manga/anime phase. I don’t follow any right now (except Ouran) and I watch Maid-sama! and xxxHolic whenever possible (I don’t even know when or what time they’re airing. If they’re on, I’ll watch it). I hate long draggy anime like Bleach. I used to LOVE Bleach. But it got too long, so I stopped following the anime. I think I watched until episode 189 or so. Somewhere when Nel transformed into a woman.

I really loved the old animes. Especially if they’re short. Like Ouran, CCS, Fruits Basket, Ayashi No Ceres, Fushigi Yuugi, Chobits, Ueki, and tons more that I followed.

I also followed a lot of mangas halfway. Such as Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle. I collected until Book 15. And then I stopped because it was really expensive and because of my studies. And now that it had ended, and I got to read the ending on one of the manga websites, I feel like burning all 15 books that I bought.

Seriously, stupid nonsensical ending. What am I going to do with the 15 books that I have? Anyone wants them?

I think the only reason why I followed Ouran and CCS was because I really really really liked the anime. And because of that, I was totally hooked on the manga.

I know 2 mangas is nothing compared to most people I know who read manga after manga after manga or who watch anime after anime after anime. I was brought up with this mindset where people who read comics are stupid or it’s embarrassing to read comics instead of real books. Where comic lovers are those kind of people who you do not want to mix with, those hooligans in classes where the teachers do not care about them.

I know it’s very offensive, but that was how I was taught. I loved reading comics. LOVE. I remember those days when I was younger, I would hide Doraemon or Pokemon under my pillows or behind my textbooks so that my parents couldn’t find them. I would secretly read them when everyone is asleep. My mother was very against me collecting Tsubasa. Or anything that has boxes with pictures and speech bubbles in them.

Whenever I enter bookshops, I would curl up with Calvin and Hobbes or Baby Blues. My mom would get upset because I am reading materials that have no substance. OH well. I do love good books, but I need to relax once in a while right?

That’s why you won’t catch me reading Betty & Veronica in broad daylight at home. It’s either in Sun-U (where my parents can’t see me) or with my trusty book light in the middle of the night.

Anyway, I’m going to follow Maid-sama! if I have the chance. It really seems like a worthy anime to follow and that the manga is awesome. I hope it has a movie. I cannot resist a good anime movie! Even if I don’t follow the anime, I cannot not watch the movie. Maybe because it’s sort of a once-off thing, so I don’t have to mop around wondering what’s going to happen during the next chapter/episode.

I wish Animax would show Studio Ghibli movies. I freaking LOVE Studio Ghibli. And I wish they would write a BOOK based on it! Or produce the movie based on a BOOK (not a manga!) and have it translated into an English language book! My favourite has got to be Howl’s Moving Castle.

Love. Love. Love. Love. It.

:)

How can you not fall in love with Calcifer?

Calcifer turning pink after being praised by Sophie. He got so excited and flattered after that hahahahaha.

There’s even a Calcifer plushie.

It’s kinda… creepy. If it’s a little more squarish and mouth omitted, I think it would look much Calcifer-ish.

~

Anyway, the whole point of this post is to express my happiness for the new Ouran chapter! You don’t know how long I’ve waited for you!

One more thing.

Personally, I wished Haruhi ended up with Hikaru. Man, they’re just SO perfect for each other! And I’m saying that because they really complement each other very well (not because Hikaru is my favourite character!). Thank God for fanfictions HAHAHA although there aren’t many good HaruXHika fanfics out there.

Why oh why must she be with Tamaki. I don’t hate him. I just… nevermind.

Eh Hikaru is so hot lah.

Thank you Ouran and my awesome blog for posting my rants so that I am distracted from my still-unavailable results.

xx

ChiRa

Now that I’m reloading Izone and waiting for the results to appear (which they aren’t), I got fed up and started changing courses and look back at my previous results.

I never realized how good I did for my exams during my first semester. My courseworks were mediocre for some but my exams really pulled me up to clinch As. Of course second semester was just okay because I passed but nothing much to be proud of only 2 subjects.

This semester, it’s the other way round. I worked so hard for my courseworks. And it paid off. Well, only for Social and IO because we didn’t get the rest back.

Hmm.

Now I’m feeling a little paranoid. What if I failed CMH’s coursework? I know I passed Developmental because I scored for my Vineland report. Oh dear oh dear.

The whole night I’ve been chatting with Kar Yee because she is so kind to be paranoid and panicky with me awaiting the results (which is still not out, by the way), so I don’t feel alone and scared. I even asked her if all these paranoia would cause us to develop paranoia schizophrenia in the future and she said yes, it would but do not worry for we shall cure each other.

I don’t really know if that’s possible, Kar Yee. Maybe we will be the first ones to try.

;)

ChiRa

(P/S : Still nothing. I am so anxious and stressed out!)

I’m having the worst writer’s block I’ve ever had.

I’ve been trying to type a decent post but I’ve been doing nothing but typing, deleting, editing, typing, deleting, and more deleting, then typing. I’ve been at it since MORNING. It’s all over the place. I promise I’ll get something up by tonight. It won’t be good but at least there’s something to read.

I don’t know what is up with my writing skills! Maybe all these anxiousness is affecting my brain!

I have to stop reloading Izone!

ChiRa