Le Cookie Chirps

I am horrible. Not only episodes, chapters too.

xx,

ChiRa

So, I was chatting with Nabs just a few minutes ago and another Chira-Nabs quote was born!

You should be swallowed by the ground and die eaten by Earth (Chira, 2011).

It’s not much, but after such a long hiatus, it’s quite good. I think we should have a resolution to think up of at least one quote a month, eh, Nabs?

xx

ChiRa

Seriously, you guys, not only does it feel awesome, it also makes me feel so useless. And guilty. Imagine my hard-working classmates going at it (their assignments) and I’m just lazing around, makes me feel so so terribly guilty. Especially when they start talking about journals and having drafts and all I can think of is that I have not even read the question yet. And the worse part is, nobody ever takes me seriously when I tell them that I have not started a thing. I think sometimes they just nod their heads when I say that just to please me or silently hoping that I’d stop talking.

:(

Anyway, I know I’ve been ever so shamelessly ignoring my blog but I am going to post at least one entry every month. AT LEAST ONE. So, here is the first one (and probably last) entry for February. Aha.

The semester has been…. trying. I’m still alive and surviving. Thank God. Just handed up my research paper on hope and life satisfaction in middle-aged and older adults. It was nice to write, although the journal-hunting process made me mad. Honestly, I love writing research papers because of the final outcome, not so much on the process because finding for journals is a pain in the tushy, really. Anyway, this was one of my not-so-frustrating papers to write. I actually didn’t ‘hit a wall’ until three-quarter way in. When I did, I just wanted to kill myself whenever I had to read another journal. But I finished it anyway, 4.30AM on the day of submission. And it wasn’t much of a last-minute work.

When I went to hand-in my paper last Wednesday before class, I bumped into Dr. P with my huge envelope and she happily asked, “Ooh, submission day today?”. Honestly, lecturers look at me funny whenever they see me on my way to hand-in my assignment. It’s like as if they’re saying “I cannot wait to see what nonsense you’ve written and strike out the entire page of crap MUAHAHAHA”, which makes me feel paranoid and harp about how my assignment would make the lecturer “vomit blood” to Vignesh.

That aside, I’m fretting about my non-existent cultural 12-page essay which I have yet to start. And it’s due on Monday, for crying out loud, and not even one journal found. I bet at least half of the class would have done like what, half?

It upsets me when I cannot think properly if I have any unfinished assignments. I don’t really pay attention to things around me because all I’m thinking of is what to write/where to find journals/what keyword to type/etc and I can go on without food or sleep or even talking, just thinking about it. Seriously, it’s not good to be like this and I should be snapping out of it really soon (next MONDAY please hurry, I don’t know how will I complete my term paper but I know it WILL be done) because after this, we only have a 1000-word movie review left.

Then exams.

Another paranoia coming around for that.

By the way, I did quite well for my exams last semester. I honestly thought that I failed everything or at least one paper. Or two. Or three. But if I keep up the grades, first class honours should be within reach. Cross fingers and please pray for me?

One more thing, I was also selected among other 14 students to submit a resume for this study trip to Lancaster. It was really flattering because they said that only the ‘brightest’ students would be chosen and I really have no right to be in that list lah, frankly, I can name off-hand those who are better than me, but it made me feel really proud. Although I only read the email properly way after the deadline of the resume submission, I felt so honoured and happy and since it was past the due date, I believe that everything happens for a reason (thank you Suannie). And to be honest, if I had read it a few days before I got my results, I wouldn’t have to be so paranoid. At first I thought that it was just another mass email, so I only GLANCED. Moral of the story? Read everything thoroughly!

Before I end, I just want to say that Glee is getting boring for me. I love Glee season 1 but season 2 is somewhat going downhill. The only part that I truly remember and love is the ‘Furt’ episode (the marriage one, if I’m not mistaken). And it’s also sad that I only like one or two songs from every episode, instead of almost all from season 1. That said, I am currently loving Glee’s version of  ’Sing’ (it’s by My Chemical Romance), so if you want something new to listen, check it out! I also love Glee’s versions of Marry You (by Bruno Mars), Valerie (by Amy Winehouse), and Need You Now (by Lady Antebellum). Simply simply superb. According to iTunes, I’ve listened to those songs HUNDREDS of times. And I don’t think I’d be stopping anytime soon.

Heh.

So, till the next time I decide to rant again, stay positive and patient everyone! That’s what I tell myself everyday.

xx

ChiRa